Today I've been licking my writerly wounds because I didn't make it into any of the placements on the challenge this round. Normally, I'm pretty level-headed about it but this time I just thought...well. I was wrong. So. Once I got my ego to stop whining, I started thinking-- is it really all that bad? The state of me & writing, that is.
And, clearly, the answer is no. Not only am I writing on a very regular basis and showing it to others (big step right there) but I'm actually doing big projects like the novel & the short story. I'm doing real work like editing & writing content a website. I'm exposing myself, pushing myself, and turning this- albeit slowly, into "what I do", not just something I dabble in. It's the mindset that's changed most of all- I can see the word "writer" dangling after my name in my mind's eye, as if it belongs there, not like a foreign object.
So, it's time to stand back up, brush off the bruises and get back on that writing horse again. Because in the end- I'm not doing all this to place on a FW list. It's gravy if it happens, but ultimately-- my goal is to be that ombudsman between Holy Spirit & Reader. I want to be a vessel, a portal, one hand reaching out to God, the other to those who read what I write, hoping to put their hands together, and slip mine out.
Could you tell this post was more for me than you? Sorry if you felt a little left out.
Till next time.
1 comment:
I find sometimes I need too much encouragement about my writing. It's always nice to be in the jewel chest. I've never won a challenge writing contest and don't know if I ever will.
As you said sometimes we need to be reminded of why we really write to encourage others to grow in their faith and to glorify our Father in heaven. Thanks for sharing your writing struggles.
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